Same Old Me

I am aware that my previous post seemed to suggest that I'm entirely new, and my perspective of the world has been altered...but of my life? Why isn't it easy to keep our focus off of ourselves when we're immersed in our own little worlds? Why do my small problems still creep up on me, frustrate me, and drain my mental and spiritual resources? Why can't I keep the big picture in mind, and remember that though I may have frustrations, they are small in the grand scheme of things?

Because I'm human, I suppose. And no matter where I go, no matter what my good intentions are, I'm still stuck with me. Even relying on God to do the work, it seems I'm always the little kid in the workshop, getting her hands in the way of what her Father is doing. Does anybody else wish He'd tell us what He's doing, so we'd know? So we'd relax.. I feel like I keep saying.."Watcha doin?" and He won't tell me so I keep putting my nose into what he's doing, getting in the way. He can't just give me a hint of what it may look like when He's done?

Why is it so hard to trust that what He's doing is for His glory and my good? Why can't I take Him at His word? Maybe I should spend some time reading His word to remind myself of His intentions.